Psychology

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Trying it Again

I know, I know, I should have been seeing a psychologist along with my psychiatrist long ago, but I’ve never had a good experience with one.

The last one I saw was about 8 years ago. In the very first session with her I mentioned that I have DID and she left the room, copied the DSM-VI page with the little part about DID, gave it to me, and she said, “This is what DID is.” I was like, “Yes, and?”

 I also told her that one of my parts will convince her in a very short period of time that I’m fine and she will only want to see me once every few months. Guess what happened after our third session? Yep, I didn’t go back.

So, after being diagnosed with Psychogenic Non-Epileptic Seizures I figured I’d better see somebody—so I did.

The DID Secret

I hate that we have to “hide” DID. I mean, I get it, we get labeled crazy and so many doctors and therapists don’t even believe it’s real.

Here’s where I am with that: Whether it’s real or not, this is how my mind decided to process trauma. Perception is reality, even to us. So, if DID is how I have to get through the PTSD, Depression and Anxiety then that’s what I’ll do. Because I believe that with some deep inner healing, I’ll be cured.

I know, I know, some people say there’s no cure. But I have hope I can conquer this because I’ve overcome a lot in my life already.

So, Mr. Psychologist, Sir, here I come.

With expectation,

Jana

P.S: I hope this works. What is your experience with counselling?

Facing Myself(s) Podcast

Look for me soon on CastBox and other Podcast streamers.
DID Inside Out, Introduction, Episode 1

Firstly, DID is not an illness, it’s a disorder like Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD), or Post Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD). Secondly, DID is an ingenious way the body and mind choose to cope in a traumatic situation. Finally, I will do my best to be transparent, honest, courageous, and loving in my posts.

Facing Myself(s)

Brokenness Comes in All Shapes & Sizes

Dissociative Identity Disorder (DID)

Welcome to My New Blog & Podcast Adventure

DID has been part of my life ever since I experienced the trauma of sexual abuse as a child for several years. When I discovered I was DID about 15-years ago, I began to process portions of the trauma and now I’m ready to do more work. So, I’ve decided to do this Blog and Podcast as part of my path to healing. I am in therapy as well to help me along the way.

Let me start by saying that DID is real, although I think there are many forms and definitions of the disorder out there. And I think we must be cautious of what we choose to believe.

Firstly, DID is not an illness, it’s a disorder like Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD), or Post Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD). Secondly, DID is an ingenious way the body and mind choose to cope in a traumatic situation. Finally, I will do my best to be transparent, honest, courageous, and loving in my posts.

Super Scared,

Jana

P.S.: Though I do have multiple personalities, I do not experience switching to them in dramatic ways, like changing clothes, ages and voices. So, if you are looking for that, you’re in the wrong place.