Psychology

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Trying it Again

I know, I know, I should have been seeing a psychologist along with my psychiatrist long ago, but I’ve never had a good experience with one.

The last one I saw was about 8 years ago. In the very first session with her I mentioned that I have DID and she left the room, copied the DSM-VI page with the little part about DID, gave it to me, and she said, “This is what DID is.” I was like, “Yes, and?”

 I also told her that one of my parts will convince her in a very short period of time that I’m fine and she will only want to see me once every few months. Guess what happened after our third session? Yep, I didn’t go back.

So, after being diagnosed with Psychogenic Non-Epileptic Seizures I figured I’d better see somebody—so I did.

The DID Secret

I hate that we have to “hide” DID. I mean, I get it, we get labeled crazy and so many doctors and therapists don’t even believe it’s real.

Here’s where I am with that: Whether it’s real or not, this is how my mind decided to process trauma. Perception is reality, even to us. So, if DID is how I have to get through the PTSD, Depression and Anxiety then that’s what I’ll do. Because I believe that with some deep inner healing, I’ll be cured.

I know, I know, some people say there’s no cure. But I have hope I can conquer this because I’ve overcome a lot in my life already.

So, Mr. Psychologist, Sir, here I come.

With expectation,

Jana

P.S: I hope this works. What is your experience with counselling?